it was just what i needed, and i had a lotta fun! but now it's back to school and i think i am just going to lay in my bed forever and never stop.
wanna know something? i just made dinner for the first time by myself. weird, huh?
i made scones, and chili, and we had honey butter. and it was so yummy. but not really worth all the money and time, so i am back to eating applesauce and water. it's a great diet, i must say.
i went to church for all 3 hours yesterday, which was a miracle. anddd i went to munch and mingle..AND. ward prayer. i am so so proud of myself.
i hate how in the moment of life, you dont find the joy. you dont realize how happy you are, or how lucky you are to have what you actually have. and then after...you look back and wish and wish that you could have everything back to where it was.
i wish so badly i could be back in elementary school, or even middle school.
but honestly, i'd even go back to the WONDERFUL summer that i had. i did so many fun things, and i got to be a kid again.
running around pretending to be a ghostbuster with the kids i nannied, riding on the back of an elephant, strutting my stuff down the streets of portland, and having dance parties on the roof of a hotel in thailand until the wee hours of the morning.
it was what i call a picture perfect summer. :)
but it's october now. oc.freaking.tober. and i dont know how this happened, really. i have lived here for almost two months (only 7 months leftttt!) and merrit leaves in 9 days. i cry almost constantly about this. i cried in class today haha. oh man, this is going to be the longesttttt 18 months of my life. i'll be over halfway done with college, i will probably have a job that you dont get paid minimum for doing back breaking work, and possibly i will have a grasp on what life is all about. this isnt what i like to talk about though.
anyways, the real reason why i am reminiscing on my wonderful summer, is how much i wish i could just remember to play, and find the light and joy in life..no matter how dark the clouds are over my head.
this video helped me remember all the funny silly times i had this summer, running around the house pretending to be chasing ghosts. why do we have to grow up? oh yeah, that's right. we dont.
thats a major reason why i love LOVE my major. i get to help kids play, and learn, and do both at the same time. it's what i'm so excited about.
anyways, while walking home today, i had the most wonderfully glorious sight:
the storm was a brewin', and i was excited. i kept seeing lightning in the distance, and could only PRAY that i wouldnt get attacked by the pouring rain that was to come. i love rain, and i love dancing in it. but when i have all my homework and my laptop, there would have been some angry words dancing around my head.
just past that soccer field, there is a giant parking lot i walk through to get to my apartment. it's always full when i am walking home, and there are ALWAYS people driving around searching for a parking spot, but they can never find it...because there isnt one! so they end up deciding to stalk people walking through to parking lot, because they assume i am going to my car. i'm not. and it's always funny because they will be about 5 feet behind me, and throughout the ENTIRE parking lot they follow me, and get all disappointed once i get to the grassy patch and still dont get into a car :) the people that actually ask are wonderful, because i dont feel like i am being watched, and i hate that. plus i dont like that they are most likely looking at my butt. i mean, go ahead and look. but stop staring at it! ;)
maybe i should put a sign on my backpack that says "stop following me, i'm not going to my car. BACK OFF!"
i'll be sure to make that today.
anyways, does nobody read this anymore!? i am getting depressed and less and less desirous to update ya'lls on my life.
that's my hint of telling you to comment. because they make me happy and feel less lonely.
also, any tips on how to survive this next 18 months of solitude would be helpful.
have you ever been walking and feel like everyone is just watching you?
yeah, this happens every.day.of.my.life.
at my school, they have this hallway. it is lined with chairs facing the walkway, and then as flags lining both sides of the hall.
you can only imagine how awkward walking down this hall can be! i always feel like people are going to stand up and clap and cheer for me!
secretly, i wish they would. how exciting would that be..seriously! all i want to do is be cheered for.
so one day i am going to stage a giant musical and people are going to be singing and dancing down the hall and nobody will ever know what hit them.
and it is going to be so so wonderful...i can just see it now. :) first i just need to find some friends to do it with me.
okay, so i have started to realize this really annoying cadence that people talk in when they are reading their scriptures or giving a talk in church, and i'm not going to lie it kinda drives me crazy.
but the most annoying thing is..i do it too! and i cant even help it! i just read it and while i'm doing it all i can think about is how annoying i am being by doing this, but of course i cant freaking stop.
boo on that!
also, merrit. aka my sister. aka my best friend. has her mission farewell this sunday. i cant even express my sadness..but also my joy for her. i cant imagine how the next two years are going to be without her...and honestly i dont want to. i dont even know who i am supposed to call when i just need to whine..nobody understands..or gives as good advice as my big sissy does :(
great, i'm crying again. i gotta stop doing this.
okay, this is kinda a lame story to tell, but forreals it was a painful moment (and it's still painful!) so i am going to whine about it to the world.
the other day i was walking home from school just talking to my mom about how bad i hated walking home because every time i did without fail i would have to go to the bathroom REALLY bad! so anyways, finally i crossed the super busy/scary road that you have to cross to get to my apartments and i'm just walking walking walking then BAM a car drives past me and a giant piece of metal comes shooting straight into my foot! and the stupid corner gets stuck into my heel. i was crying and screaming because it freaked me out! and then i pulled it out and i was all bloody! but i had to keep walking because i had to go to the bathroom and so i was running down the road with a bloody foot and me screaming on the phone to my mother.
i'm sure it was quite the sight.
so that's my college life for you. i am still weird. and i am still happy as a lark :)
anyways, what the heck is a lark and why is it so happy!? what if i wanna be happy as a parrot? or a turtle? I LOVE TURTLES. i want one soooooooooooooooooooooo bad.
almost as bad as i want a bull dog (hint hint, dad)
..no but seriously. dont let them. because they will :/
yes..my apartment was struck with the mean lil buggers called bed bugs. it was quite the dramatic experience, that's for sure. and it had to happen when i was in the WORST mood ever.
everyone was running around grabbing their stuff, screaming, and ripping sheets off the beds and i was just standing there..ready to cut the next person that screamed. i loaded up my bags, and ran far...FAAARR. away. (okay, well maybe just to barnes and nobel. but they have free wifi!) anyways..imagine this. hobo mallory (in her work out clothes from zumba class) laying on the floor in the corner of a book store with her backpack and all her "precious" belongings all around her. yeah, i looked homeless.
oh. and guess what? i live at hogwarts....great.
so..thats me. being kicked out of my apartment so they could spray the thing down. i havent slept on my bed since..because i didnt feel like washing my sheets. sooo i slept on the floor in my roommates TINYYY room. it was quite cozy. :)
anyways, it's getting colder outside and i am getting more and more unhappy about it. i LOVE fall...but its the thing that follows it that i hate. especially because i have to walk to school andddd it's quite a long walk! driving doesnt take that long, but then once you are walking..it's not as quick as you would hope. sooo i am taking donations to go towards buying me a parking pass at school so my walk isnt quite as far :)
