thailand memories.

soo i have just been thinking about my cute/ awesome thailand trip and how much i loved it and how much i wish i could be there right now, you guys have no idea how much i loved it there. it was SOOOO much fun! i made so many awesome friends and had so much awesome memories, and sooo i just wanted to share a few pictures with you to show how much freaking fun i had! maybe one day i will update you on all the stories of the goodness of my trip, or mabye you should invite me to eat dinner at your house so i can tell you all the wonderfulness of it (but PLEASE i beg of you, please do not make thai food. i cant take it!) okay, and i know this is like put together like a freaking stupid person did it, but i'm far too lazy to care what it looks like..soooo dont be hatin :)

shopping in phuket

I LOVE THESE KIDS! SO MUCH

water in jello cups. :)

it's so beautiful here! we were soo hyper. all the time :)

we dug the crap out of that hole!vip lounge :)

EWWW.i almost died this day. forreals.

this is kinda embarrassing

okay, i dont know if anyone really knows this about me..well probably everyone does but i just feel like talking about this anyways. i have this huge fear of probably the stupidest thing on the planet earth...

mascots.

i know, it's like something a freaking 3 year old would say, but trust me i have tried so hard to overcome this fear. (by the way, i looked it up, it's called Masklophobia--the fear of mascots..i'm not the only one!) but anyways, i have just tried to talk myself out of this for soo long but it's not working. i am convinced that once i finally find someone to date (heaven knows when that's going to happen) but WHEN i do...one day he'll surprise me and be like the freaking mascot of something..and that will be that because i wont be able to talk to him ever again!

anyways, i was thinking about my past experiences with them..and i dont even have a traumatic one..BUT i do have this memory of when utah had the indoor soccer team Freeze or whatever the heck their name was. they had this FREAKY mascot...it was like  a giant blue bear looking thing with dreads. (i tried finding a picture but i couldnt. okay, actually i didnt really try that hard. but you'll get over it)

so we had like season tickets or something, i dont even remember. all i know is we went a lot. and one time we went with these people in the neighborhood (i've had a crush on one of their sons since like...age 6) so blah blah blah, we're just at the game having a jolly good time..and then one of the worker guys comes over and asks if our family wants to go on the field during halftime and play one of the shooting games or whatever, and i was really excited at first! but then the fear of having to see that freaking mascot up close came over my entire body and i could not make myself get down on that stupid field. so one of the boys from the other family went in my place.

can i be a bigger baby!?

and at soccer games even know...me being a freaking 18 year old adult...i see that stupid mascot and my stupid heart like POUNDS and i sweat! once i spent the whole game running around the stadium because i swear he follows me everywhere i go. i'll hide in the bathroom foreverrrrrr.

it's kind of embarrassing..i cant believe i am even admitting all of this. i guess it doesnt even matter to anyone else.

oh well, that's all i wanted to say. i always feel awkward ending blog posts..i never know what to say! i guess it's the same with my journal, i kinda just wanna end it mid sentence because i realize that what i'm talking about is soo lame and pointless. so i guess i'll just be done now....

got sweat?

WOW so after what seems like 132 weeks of traveling, we're FINALLY in thailand! oh my goshhh! what a beautiful country it is! our hotel is right by this marsh/river thing. i thought it was the ocean, but this is still super cool!

The plane ride was MISRABLE to say the least. we went from slc to san fran, then from san fran to taiwan. aka i took an ambien to i could sleep on the flight, but i woke up when they were bringing the food around. i was super excited/hungry. and it was chicken! YUM my favorite, right? uhh no. never again. i ate it, and fell right back asleep. actually i might have fallen asleep while eating, i honestly cannot remember. but after a while of sleeping, i woke up to myself barfing alllll over the place. uh yeah. chicken, noodles, a roll. everywhere. i hardly remember this since i was so out of it and drugged up, but yes. there was puke all over me and my tray table. i woke up aaron who was next to me because i had no freaking idea what to do. and he looked at it and covered his nose. ha how rude. actually i would too, it was gross. then i like finally got the idea to call the flight attendant and there were like 8 of them standing there just looking at me and i was like. "i puuuuked." and so finally they got me some towels and what not. bless their hearts. luckily i had my blanket over my body, so i just wrapped it up and threw that and my pillow away. i was so bummed because that was my favorite travel blankie and pillow :(

oh well. i survived. then later i woke up and i couldnt remember if that whole thing was real or not because it was just so weird. but yeah it was real and i am super grossed out by myself. so i got up and took some pepto and hoped i would feel better and went back to sleep becase...what else are you going to do on a 13 hour flight? but i woke up AGAIN and was sick so i called the lady just in time for her to bring me a bag to puke in. yeah. at least this one was pink so it wasnt so bad to look at.

then we finally got to taipei (yeah, cant spell it. sorry. it's in taiwan though) and i thought i felt better until they had us get onto a tour bus. we had a 14 hour layover and they thought it would be fun to make barfy mallory get on an effing bus and drive around the entire country. yeah, i was so sick. and the tour guide, bless his heart, he was so cute but he just talked and talked and i was about to puke so finally i just grabbed him and i was like "get me a back or a garbage can because i'm going to puke" so he's like running around the bus for me. he was so sweet. so yeah, needless to say i just puked my guts out for like 3 days. i felt so stupid. and i couldnt stop crying! i was just so upset that i hadnt been able to freaking lay in a bed or puke in a real toilet or sleep for 3 days that i just wanted to cry all the time!

but finally i took some motion sickness medicine, passed out asleep on the bus, and felt a lot better :)

but now. i am in thailand. and i am hot. and sweaty. and sticky. and i am wearing so much sunscreen and bugspray i think if i wanted to i could climb up walls with my sticky skin.

probaby the best things that have happened to me so far:
1. sleeping in a bed
2. emily getting attacked in the shower by i lizard.
3. a girl finding a cocroach in her undies.
4. the taiwanese girl wearing a shirt that said "i love sweet hug?"
5. all of the BEAUTIFUL colors on temples and shrines.
6. the sweet kids that loved holding my hand and running around
7. biffing it while playing soccer
8. when the lady made me get up and dance in front of everyone durning the opening ceremonies.
9. brushing my teeth after not being able to for 3 days.
10. the bananas (i had 6 for lunch)
11. the surprise french fries for dinner
12. AIR CONDITIONING IN MY HOTEL ROOM.
13. this computer so i dont feel so lonely :)
14. the sooo cute thai baby i got to hold, but he was so afraid of me. probably because i'm white.
15. the pearls i got for SUPER cheap :)

now will someone please make it stop being sooo hot during the day?! i honestly might die. i cannot believe how hot it is. i wish you knew..ah.
i seriously just sweat from every part of my body.
even my butt.
yes. i have swass. and i hate it.

but i am hoping tomorrow i will be able to survive and get some good construction done! we're putting in ceptic tanks, building some building and then tiling a floor! sooo bring on the heat! (actually, dont. pray for cloud cover please)

i am sorry if i spelled every single word wrong in this post, i am so out of it and just like..brain dead i cant even like function. i am just thankful for the shower, even though it drips out one drop of water at a time.

anyways, i am safe and well and happy and hot! i hope everything in america is fine and dandy. i loove you all! :)

18 years...any regrets?

you know when something big is about to happen, ooh lets just say..something like your graduation..and it makes you look back on your life and think if you would have done anything differently,or if you have any regrets? wellllll i've been actually thinking a lot about it because of my whole tech center graduation, and now my high school graduation. it's just weird. but honestly, i wouldnt go back.

i love who i turned out to be, and honestly that's good enough for me. granted, i dont have a lot of friends, but i'm okay with that. i dont feel like i need to be impressing other people, or trying to fit in with everyone, and i really love that about me. i know that's kinda weird, but it's just how i am i guess :) i also really like that i am not afraid to stand up for myself, or say no to people when i really mean no.

what's weird is, no matter how much i hated the tech center, i loved it at the same time. i found out what i DIDNT wanna do when i grow up, i made a lot of friends, i found out what kinds of boys to NOT date, andddddd i learned that public speaking is one of my favorite things ever :)

i guess there are a few things i wish i would have done more in high school...maybe go on a date once in a while ;) or not be so afraid to trust people, but i suppose that'll just be something i need to work on!

the one thing i regret (that is actually probably the lamest thing ever) is once my family went on a vacation to sea world or something, and me and merrit had the chance to kiss a sea lion, but i chickened out. i wanna freakin kiss a sea lion!



anyways. i think my goal is to go on one date with one boy that i can actually stand before i leave for thailand. i have two weeks. blahhh.

maybe i should change that goal right now. it's a lot harder then you think it is! i mean, i realize i'm weird..but really, come one. at least i make good conversation! anyways, i hope i get to kiss a sea lion one day, that's all i ever think about. maybe riding a elephant in thailand will make up for it. but knowing me i am going to chicken out. except i did pet a rhino, sooooo maybe i'm being less of a chicken.

oh wait no. i am still terrified of mascots. :( poooo. one day...i'll be brave :)

i have become "diner girl"

oookay. so i started my new job at the cafe in lifetime, and i really like it! the first day i was really scared and overwhelmed, but now i feel less stupid and i am kinda getting the hang of it, but i mean, it's only been two days so i'm not a professional or anything.

but anyways, onto the topic of this little post.

it seems to be that all the rich and popular boys from my school just sit and hang out at the cafe. i swear they come in three times a day and eat a bazillion foods. well this makes it super awkward for me because i kinda know some of them, and i think they know me, but i know all of them..just from seeing them at school..i mean they're popular everyone knows of them! anyways so they come in today, and i would just smile at them and try not to die of awkwardness. but they like refused to look at me! it was weird! and then this kid ordered a pizza and went and sat down, and i was just cleaning up the sitting area. so the lady made the pizza, and called his name and walked away, but he didnt hear. so i felt obligated to take him this stupid pizza with these 7 guys around him.
so i get up enough courage to grab the pizza and walk it over to them, and i got there and i was like "HI! this is blah blah blah's pizza" and nobody even looked at me, soo i was like ookay.
and then i looked at this one kid and i was like, is you're name blah blah blah. and they didnt look AGAIN. so i was like okay. i am going to throw this pizza at the wall and run into the back room and cry because i feel like such an idiot. so i just set the pizza down in front of a random boy as i yell you're welcome to the world and run away.
man. this story was a lot more awkward when it happened, now it just sounds stupid. maybe i'm writing it in a stupid way but this is all i've got right now.
BOO.

i wish i could explain to you the awkwardness of it. i felt like the girl on a Cinderella story and all the popular people are so mean.

but seriously, other than that i really love my job! the people are so nice!

also, school is almost over. i have half of my math final to finish and then i am DONE. i seriously cannot believe this! I AM GRADUATING! i dont know when that happened, but i like the sound of it :)

i had seminary graduation on sunday, and it felt sooo good to be done! OH i also gave a church on sunday, yeah, i dominated. too bad nobody was there to hear it, but i just whipped that thing out!i was really impressed with myself. you know, no matter how much i complain about that tech center class i did, i am SO thankful for the public speaking skills that i learned, because i am so much more confident and good at public speaking! not a nervous freak who cant spit words out!

oh but anyways, back to what i wanted to say about seminary graduation. when it was my turn to walk up, i got SO nervous! like i felt like i was walking so weird and i got stressed out for the real high school graduation because i have to walk a lot farther, and with a ton more people watching me and i really am stressing about this! so i need to practice my walk, maybe i'll watch more america's next top model so i can get some good pointers. yeah. that's probably a good idea.

this is what i'm going to do twice a day, every day until i get my walk DOWN.

what the what!?

okay sooo i start my new job today :) i dont know if i said this ever but i got a job at LIFETIME FITNESS :) i am so freaking excited. i will be working in the cafe and bistro thing there, and i really cant wait! i hope i'm not bad at it..not gunna lie i'm kinda nervous! but the people there seem really cool annnddd it seems just like a fun place! so anyways, i am really excited.


oh, also...school sucks. the end.

oh but yesterday i was at the gym and i was talking to this random girl about i dont know what..but anyways she told me about this website called myfitnesspal.com and she said its kinda like a weight loss tracker/food journal/exercise helper thing that like you can type in all your information and it helps you track how many calories you should be eating, how much you should be working out, ect. to meet your goal weight by a certain date...it seemed really cool! i havent had time to check it out, but it seemed sweeett to me. sooo for all my family members that are doing this crazy biggest loser competition (p.s. i am going to win) but its free! so sign up and geeeet going! :)

also, graduation in like TWO weeks.
thailand in three. WHAT THE WHAT?! how did that sneak up on me?! well i am selling sonic value cards that have a lot of buy one get one free things, and all the money is going towards rebuilding the school in thailand that was crashed down my the tsunami sooo if you're interested, they are $10 and just contact me! i'd love to get ya one. anyways, either email mallory-kay@hotmail.com or facebook, text, ya know...whatever :)

also..this saturday we are having a garage sale, i am not sure of the exact location..but i'll keep you posted! we'll be selling not trashy stuff! i promise! we'll have the cards there, we'll have food, it'll be fun i promise! :)

procrastination

Okay so i have to give a 10 minute speech tomorrow...30 slides...video clips..all of that jazz. but what is the only thing i can think about?
toast.

i freaking love toast. i wish i could steal all the bread from great harvest and make it into toast and then slap some butter on it and eat it all the time.

it is freaking amazing.

anyways...i thought of something else that gives me anxiety...

having to deal with my passport in the airport. i have like legit anxiety that i am going to lose it, and get stuck somewhere and yada yada yada. i like check my bag for it 14 times while standing in some ten minute line...i cant help it! i guess it's better than not caring and leaving it somewhere. but sometimes i just feel like i'm so obsessed with not losing it that i am going to lose it.

anyways...i came up with a few things that i cant stand:

1. friction. like rubbing my hands together. skin on skin contact..HATE it.
2. tinfoil. i just hate it.
3. when people scratch the carpet with their fingernails.
4. touching paper after washing my hands.
5. the sound of forks on glass plates


okay i think that's all. i NEED to write this stupid speech.uuugh.