take your hat off as the flag goes by.

have you ever been walking and feel like everyone is just watching you?
yeah, this happens every.day.of.my.life.
at my school, they have this hallway. it is lined with chairs facing the walkway, and then as flags lining both sides of the hall.

you can only imagine how awkward walking down this hall can be! i always feel like people are going to stand up and clap and cheer for me!

secretly, i wish they would. how exciting would that be..seriously! all i want to do is be cheered for.

so one day i am going to stage a giant musical and people are going to be singing and dancing down the hall and nobody will ever know what hit them. 

and it is going to be so so wonderful...i can just see it now. :) first i just need to find some friends to do it with me. 

also. i have a secret. i am in love.

:/

reasons why i love my family

enough said.

scripture talk

okay, so i have started to realize this really annoying cadence that people talk in when they are reading their scriptures or giving a talk in church, and i'm not going to lie it kinda drives me crazy.
but the most annoying thing is..i do it too! and i cant even help it! i just read it and while i'm doing it all i can think about is how annoying i am being by doing this, but of course i cant freaking stop.
boo on that!
also, merrit. aka my sister. aka my best friend. has her mission farewell this sunday. i cant even express my sadness..but also my joy for her. i cant imagine how the next two years are going to be without her...and honestly i dont want to. i dont even know who i am supposed to call when i just need to whine..nobody understands..or gives as good advice as my big sissy does :(
great, i'm crying again. i gotta stop doing this.

i got attacked.

okay, this is kinda a lame story to tell, but forreals it was a painful moment (and it's still painful!) so i am going to whine about it to the world.

the other day i was walking home from school just talking to my mom about how bad i hated walking home because every time i did without fail i would have to go to the bathroom REALLY bad! so anyways, finally i crossed the super busy/scary road that you have to cross to get to my apartments and i'm just walking walking walking then BAM a car drives past me and a giant piece of metal comes shooting straight into my foot! and the stupid corner gets stuck into my heel. i was crying and screaming because it freaked me out! and then i pulled it out and i was all bloody! but i had to keep walking because i had to go to the bathroom and so i was running down the road with a bloody foot and me screaming on the phone to my mother.
i'm sure it was quite the sight.

so that's my college life for you. i am still weird. and i am still happy as a lark :)

anyways, what the heck is a lark and why is it so happy!? what if i wanna be happy as a parrot? or a turtle? I LOVE TURTLES. i want one soooooooooooooooooooooo bad.
almost as bad as i want a bull dog (hint hint, dad)

sleep tight...dont let the bed bugs bite!

..no but seriously. dont let them. because they will :/

yes..my apartment was struck with the mean lil buggers called bed bugs. it was quite the dramatic experience, that's for sure. and it had to happen when i was in the WORST mood ever.

everyone was running around grabbing their stuff, screaming, and ripping sheets off the beds and i was just standing there..ready to cut the next person that screamed. i loaded up my bags, and ran far...FAAARR. away. (okay, well maybe just to barnes and nobel. but they have free wifi!) anyways..imagine this. hobo mallory (in her work out clothes from zumba class) laying on the floor in the corner of a book store with her backpack and all her "precious" belongings all around her. yeah, i looked homeless.

oh. and guess what? i live at hogwarts....great.

so..thats me. being kicked out of my apartment so they could spray the thing down. i havent slept on my bed since..because i didnt feel like washing my sheets. sooo i slept on the floor in my roommates TINYYY room. it was quite cozy. :)

anyways, it's getting colder outside and i am getting more and more unhappy about it. i LOVE fall...but its the thing that follows it that i hate. especially because i have to walk to school andddd it's quite a long walk! driving doesnt take that long, but then once you are walking..it's not as quick as you would hope. sooo i am taking donations to go towards buying me a parking pass at school so my walk isnt quite as far :)

college is great though :)

this.stupid.freaking.bed.

i cant walk. i blame this bed.
i got a really weird rash the other day, and then it went away. but my roommate got it too..but hers hasnt gone away. so question..can you get a rash from mold..because we have all sorts of mold in our shower. soo..hopefully i dont die.

i love my new job :) i mean, all i do is wipe tables and crawl around on the floor and wipe things, but it's fun! mostly i am just SO thankful that i have a job. SOOO thankful!

umm school is good...suuuper boring. i feel like i'm really not even doing anything! but it's fun! you should see all the drawings i do during class! today i was in class and i opened my notebook full of my arts and the boy next to me looked over and just busted up laughing at me. i a little bits wanted to die, but you know whatever.

and then i am walking to my next class (down the worlds longest stair case) and i was listening to music and i was having a grand old time and BAM. i fall down the stairs. and boy oh boy did i fall..and you know when you fall and you make weird sounds? yeah, i did that. and then i just sat their with an owey butt laughing my head off at myself..and everyone thought i was so crazy, but it was funny!

anyways, i just want to sit here and curse at this mattress of mine :s

OH! tomorrow i am doing my first classroom observation! HORRAAAYY! i am excited, but actually really nervous. oh well, i'll let you know how it goessss!

anyways, sorry i am so boring. i dont even have any good stories..you'd think i didnt do anything all day..but trust me. i do. :)

a rude awakening.

DISCLAIMER: this is me pouring my soul out. so i am sorry that it's boring. and i'm sorry if it makes no sense. but just let me be.

okay, so i have kinda been slacking in my scripture reading and praying. i guess i kinda find it hard to do it when i go to bed later then my roommate and then i dont want to turn the light on to read (because heaven forbid i even take my book into the other room). but anyways, today i decided i needed to get back into the rhythm of things and to refocus my life...it's funny what god will show you in the exact moments that you need it.
i was on my computer wishing i could turn the light on to read, but then i realized that it is the age of technology, and i was pretty sure that somewhere on this world wide web i could find something that would allow me to read without turing on the stupid light. so i did :)

i randomly clicked on enos and i guess every single word he said in that tiny little book was exactly what i needed to hear. not exactly what i wanted to hear, but what i needed :) enos was such a strong, and full of faith man and i wish so badly i could be more like him. it's funny how simple it is, trust in the lord and how vast the blessings you recieve are. i wish i could be better at this then i am :s

i love the difference that i can see in my life when i focus my life towards living it how the savior would want me to. it's getting harder and harder i guess you could say, living on your own and everything. there are a million things being pushed at you and you have so many things to stress out about and i hate how i've been slacking off, and not letting the lord into my life.

SOOO. blah blah blah, i know i am kinda being boring so sorry. but i just want to challenge everyone...if you've been slacking on your scripture reading..pick up that book of mormon and read it because it will change your life, and you'll see that things just seem to go in a better direction and you can make it through the day without calling your mom and crying to her (okay, mostly that's just me that does it. but you know..insert your own issue in place of mine)

but anyways. i love jesus :) aaaand i'm starting to love college (well..i wouldnt say love. but i am beginning to be able to live through the day a little bit.)