a very good friend once told me...

to laugh it off. stop being so hard on yourself and just learn to laugh at your mistakes and your trials...so that's what i have been trying to do..very hard. uggh. easier said than done though, i am not going to lie. sometimes all you want to do is beat someones head into a brick wall and be grumpy! but for some reason lately it's been like that for me alllllll the time.

but dont worry i'm stopping..NOW.

anyways. prommm is march 10th.
and i am bound and determined to force someone to ask me, just like i've forced people to take me to every other dance that i've been to. haha..sorry guys ;) i just wanna goooo :( it's my juinor prom. and i'm a junior. so pretty much...i'll be really mad when i am stuck at home throwing myself a pity party.

oh and did i forget to mention...my feet are going to fall off! freakin i get into work today and they have 15..yes 15 FULL bags waiting for me. then like half a million people decide to come and drop off even more stuff and i couldnt go fast enough and i was so stressed out and hungry and i had to go to the bathroom and..it was just bad. then i lock up at 7 and this guy drives up, but i was hiding wishing he would go away. but of course not. he stands there knocking for a while, then comes to the drive through door and knocks and stairs at me until i go help him. iwas mad. then like twelve other people followed i was like HELLO!! NO! i wanna freakin go home and eat before i die!

because..for some reason i havent been feeling well, and so i just am never in the mood to eat but it just HIT ME. and i wanted to kick someone...but i didnt.

anyways..what else happened. um pretty much nothing else. that's my life in a nutshell :) lucky you gets to read it...my life is sooooooo interesting. i just cant even handle it.

HA.

didnt see that one coming.

yes. i mallory hit a parked car with my beast of a mini van.of course there is NOT A SCRATCH on my car. but i ramed the whole bumper in on the stupid boy that is retarded and doesnt know how to park's car. i'm pissed. as if i'm not stressed out about money and everything enought, this has to happen. PERFECTTTT.
lets see...
kenya $1675
last bs ticket $135
this stupid car...$?? unknown.

there goes my savings account.
and all my future checks.
i think i might sell my guitar? maybe? i dont know. every bit of money will get me closer to paying it off.

NINE.

nine shots.
nine death shots.
nine death shots just to go to kenya.

how much better can it get...really?!

just a lil' update/thankful thursday

well my day today and yesterday was good. and then today got ruined. thanks a lot stupid world. i am going to have a nervous breakdown and cry my eyeballs out.
but all is dandy.

hey hey come what may i'm not gunna let that ruin my day. no sir. no way. i'm not gunna let that ruin my day.

but that's a lie because i am still going to. UGH. i was informed today that i have to pay $900 in the next 9 days for kenya.
but i think this is where thankful thursday comes in.

THANKFUL THURSDAY.
1. all the money that people donated to me. really guys, thanks! it helped out A TON. :) i love you all for it.
2. getting locked out of electronic music. i really was not in the mood...so he gave me the perfect reason to run away :)
3. take home tests
4. dollar stores

okay. i'm done with that. anyways pretty much my life has been BORING BEYOND BELIEF lately. so i have nothing to tell anyone about!

oh but i taked to my boss and we made up :) which was kinda good. but i'm still on the lookout for another job, because 6.55 just sucks.

anyways i'm not really in the mood for this whole blog writing thing right now

IT WASN'T EVEN MY FAULT

stupid pen wasn't even my fault.

i'm mad. and bitter. and annoyed. and every mad word in the dictionary. and all the mad words that aren't in the dictionary.

but i'm over that.

and i'm still quitting my job :) go me!

two words ruined my life.

it's 10 am and i already have something to write about. but believe me it's not good.
i am crying my eyeballs out.
i am going to lose my job.
my boss is going to beat me.
i'm shaking so bad i cant hardly type.
i cant go to work today. i just cant.

and all this is because of two simple words in one stupid phone call that woke me up.

ink load.

this means nothing to you, but to me it means...i'm dead. they're going to throw me in the oven lock it up and throw away the key.

you know how i work at red hanger right? well. my job is to take in the clothes, check the pockets, tag the clothes, and get them all ready for cleaning. if there is a pen in the pockets, and it stays there, i'm dead.

and yes folks, there was a pen in the pocket.

and did i get it out? no.
was it on purpose? no.

so long story short, it exploded in the dry cleaning machine, got over EVERYTHING. and...i'm dead.

I AM SORRY.

i've been so busy it's not even funny, and i never have time to write! well..who am i kidding i barely have time to go to the bathroom for heck sakes!

so needless to say, my life is crazy. between school, then straight to work, then straight to my homework (or the occasional napping with a book over my face), then trying to fit the gym, life, friends, um goodness..i dont even have time to spend all this precious money i am making!

it's very upsetting.

so today...i took clorox (spelling? who knows...) wipes to work today and cleaned EVERYTHING. i scrubbed all the black sticky stuff off of the three tables, the two key boards, i swept every little grey dust bunny that was floating around ( believe me...there was enough to fill a full size garbage can) it was terrible. but i feel a lot better about myself. AND i got to wear my normal clothes :) yay for no ugly uniform days. i'm praying i get another one tomorrow.

THEN today i went to a party. but there is nothing to tell there...then i went to see he's not that into you. and may i advise you..GO SEE IT :) and if you already have...i'm the brown haired one that over anylyzes EVERYTHING and tries way too hard.

anyways, now that it is 12:25 i need to get some of that much needed beauty sleep :)