how much longer..

how much longer..until winter is over...29 days

how much longer..until i graduate...WAY too long. like three months too long.

how much longer..do i have to endure this cold season and the death of school?

BOO. i am cold. and tired. and annoyed at all the things called school. and the tech center. and i guess since jordan school district got screwed over that the teachers are on strike or something stupid and they refuse to do any extracurricular activities. yes. this includes prom, spring sports, clubs. anything. LAME. but whatever. its not like i go anyways. i havent been to first period ALLLL quarter. and guess what..its midterms.BUT the upside of this? i havent been marked absent this whole time! HAHA! in your face attendance policy!

buttt guess what?! someone rubbed freakin poo. or chocolate. on my car! i'm freakin pissed off like no other! so if it was you, i will find you. and take you down.

i also found a new love. exercise! i thought i hated it..but guess what? i totally dont! mostly i love going to the classes, even though they're harder than heck...its so fun! so my lovely cousin melanie inspired me to do something great called one day i am going to be just like her and be an instructor! because..how fun would that be!?

OH. also...i really enjoy this one person called this kid that works there. :) only secretly so you cant tell anyone. i told my mom and then made her come and look a him..and she wasnt impressed with his looks. but i am!YEAH I AM.

but whatever. its not like i can get a normal date to save my life.
anyways, last weekend was my WONDERFUL grandma's 70th birthday. she is one of the greatest people in the entire world. and i'm not even kidding. so we had a huge celebration to...celebrate of course! we had a yum yum yummy dinner and then shared the things we loved about her..and then..DANCE PARTY BABY! :) it was probably the best thing ever..and i got to wear my audrey hepburn dress. LOVE IT. i guess i'll add some pictures or something..





WOAH. I JUST HAVE DEJAVU ABOUT WRITING THIS BLOG. weirdy. haha.

Valentines Day...

soooooo..as we all know i should be at the gym, but i could NOT keep this to myself. you guys have no idea what kind of treat you are in for today ;)

i have been thinking, thinking, thinking of what in the world should i get my valentines. (yes with an s. ;)) but anyways. of course i waiting until the LAST SECOND to do any of my shopping, and praise the lord i found the PERFECT gift of all time.

so everyone. here it is. i know you're searching too and you just cant find the right thing. well, folks. the heavens have answered our prayers. its the "warmest most personal gift you can share!" hazza!

this is why i'm weird.

i made a list of things that give me anxiety, as you know :) and its GREAT! actually i haven't read it in almost two months...weirdy weird weird how time flies! and i wasnt even having fun. but anyways. this list only contains a few things that give me extreme anxiety to the point of i might rip my hair out.

dont make fun of me. mmkay? actually..you can. because i make fun of myself. i love it.

okay!

ehm..
THINGS THAT GIVE ME ANXIETY: (by the way, its a long list.)

1. when people walk around the airplane when the seatbelt sign is on.
2. when i want to sing, but i dont know the words
3. proper people
4. college
5 everything except chocolate and harry potter
6. being fat
8. techno music
9. my mental issues
10. peeing on airplanes
11. ghostbuster airplane toilet movie
12. loud flushing toilets
13. having my brain stem ache and merrit not being there to massage it.
14. boys that wear basketball (or any sports clothes) 24/7
15. small areas
16. chipped fingernail polish
17. when people i dont know make me eat at their house
18. nylons
19. Mrs. Pay
20. sharing rooms with people
21. grimy things that i can escape.
22. people who are over the age of two and still dont brush their hair.
23. playing games with my mom
24. getting on/off trains
25. not knowing what time it is
26. mumblers
27. my room that becomes magically messy
28. MATH.
29. driving at night
30. driving in traffic
31. driving a mini van
32. being the only person in a store
33. intense face to face conversations
34. kash.
35. computers
36. people telling me important things because i always forget to listen
37. recipts that i dont know where to put but i know i'll maybe need them one day because maybe i want to take this item of clothing that i bought back.
38. too small of jeans
39. trying to fall asleep with glasses on my face and then it hurts but i dont know where to put them
40. having to use the bathroom but being at someones house were its really a lotta bit to awkward to do it.

:) okay i guess i'll stop there.

even while writing that i kinda get like the inside anxiety thing going on! what the heck!
anyways. what things give you anxiety?! i wanna know!

My Lists

So as we all know, i made a couple of lists while over the Christmas break. Believe it or not these lists practically define my life. So I thought it would be appropriate to share them with you...so here you go. I am going to type exatly what i wrote in black, and then add my own little commentary in red. just so you aren't totally confused with my strange thinking brain.

LIST #1

reasons why why I cant be granola

1. -----------^ (exactly that. i wrote two why's. i am not sure why. or what was going on with my brain at that moment...but...i did it nonethelesss.)
2. too fat (they gotta be a bean pole)
3. pure white baby skin (i am sensitive to the sun! :( and my body refuses to get tan.)
4. I cant breathe in the wilderness.
5. I hate hairy armpits (they hurt!)
6. greasy hair. (it seriously grosses me out. and i get it in like 45 minutes so not showering for 3 weeks is out of the question. plus if i dont shower every day i get hair hurt!)
7. I HATE ALL THE CHACOS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.
8. my back hurts
9. MOLE (its gross. you cant be granola and have a huge fat mole on your face)
10. too short of hair. (i feel like you need to have long hippy hair. i dont.)
11. too short (again with the bean pole thing.)
12. no red hair for me (unless its fake)
13. i have zits
14. my voice is too loud
15. i love tv. (so sue me! i find pleasure in mindlessly watching tv for an evening.)

wow! this is exciting. believe me....the next list is the best. but i am thinking i will save it for another post...just because people always tell me i dont post enought, but sometimes i just have nothing to say! so if i do this..i can have something to say and post more often! plus i have a lot of things i need to add to this next what.

PREVIEW: Things that give me ANXIETY.

believe me it is going to be good :) tune in soon.

who made up the thing called college?!

so hello. college is coming closer and closer and it gives me stress!
i am not exactly sure what i am supposed to do and i feel like the whole thing is a big huge mystery! also, there is so much to do it just is a lotta bit too stressful! like figuring out what classes to take, what i want to major in, where to live, who to live with, where to find money (#1 stress causer), ect.

I was like really wanting to major in baking and pastry arts, open my own little shop blah blah blah. but now i dont really feel like i want to do that! When we were in Mexico most of the spanish speakers got sick and couldnt go to the village, so i had to teach the students. and it just made me realize how much i loveee working with kids and teaching. But you see..there is a problem with that because i HATE the school system. I think it is such a terrible way to grade students and just..boo! the way the conduct everything drives me crazy.

I also dont want to be in the position of "the teacher" nor do i want to deal with being in the position of being constantly bothered by the people higher up in the system.

Thats hard for me though because i love teaching and the kids so much! arghhh.

Anyways so that is what is in my brain right now. interesting? NOT. it never is.

Today i learned a valuable lesson...dont try and text and play bejewled at the same time. it really is super hard! and people get mad at you because you dont text the words right. so just if the thought ever runs through your mind, DONT DO IT!

hmm. i got my new birthday laptop in the mail today :) it has been on since 2:30 and being used, of course! there is so much to do! and i figured...i might as well update my blog because i could either work out, go to bed, or do this. and i picked this.

but it is such a nice laptop! i am practically obsessed with it. i took like 800 pictures of myself with the camera webcam thingy. soo entertaininggggg!

also, i am watching high school musical 3. i know its like a super dorky movie and what not, but i am not going to lie i love it. i secretly wish that my life was that movie. or actually maybe i wish i looked like vanessa, and had a hottie like zac!

i could write a book about all the movies i wish my life were like. buttt instead i wont because that would probably be the worlds most boring book in the entire planet earth! but i did make a few lists of things while i was sitting on the plane to mexico! it was the best thing ever. i will give you a little preview.
1. reasons why i am not granola
2. things that give me anxiety
3. colors that make me want to puke.

:) you're going to enjoy them. but too bad for you because i am wayyy too lazy to walk down to my bedroom to get my notebook.

Tom, this is for you ;)

So practically the only person that whines to me that i dont write enugh on my blog is my cute uncle tom :) so bud, this is for you!

Lets see. December 22..you'd think..OH! the kids are all out of school because its christmas time, and schools cant be THAT mean to the children...HA! i wish. yes. i will be attending school until the FREAKIN 23 OF DECEMBER. that is..the day before christmas ever (which in my head is better than christmas) so..screw them!

I also found out that i hate driving. Well, you see. I hated it before i even told you this, but the fact that there is about 234236 million inches of snow on the ground, and the people refuse to plow the roads that i drive on..it really makes my life a lot harder then i should be! and i mean A LOT.

5 minute drive to the gym? 20 minutes

15 minute drive to school? 30 minutes (BUT! i was on time :) )

but all is well, because i am escaping on SATURDAY. horray for mexico. horray for partying in mexico on new years. horray for working my butt off and serving these people like nobodys BIDNESS! (business...)

Also, when i get home (January 3) i will go to sleep that night. and when i wake up, it will be my 18th birthday. have i even thought about this? no. thinking about it brings me to tears...

all i want for my birthday is to be 1 for the rest of my life. so please reverse time and make it happen. or i will sulk for the rest of my life, and you'll be sorry. verrry very soorry.

doom on birthdays though. i really hate them because you build up this great thing in your mind that these friends that you really dont have all of a sudden pop up and make it the best day of the year and you are so happy and you have all your dreams come true and you just make up this huge fantasy...but then in reality you get a pair of socks and a text from your grandma, and 6 people write on your facebook wall that say happy birthday. but they really dont give a crap. the only reason they did it was because they saw it pop up on the side when they logged on to stalk some boy thats in their math class, but they've never talked to in their life.

so doom on the thing they call birthdays. (:

ALSO WHY IS IT SO FREAKIN COLD EVERYWHERE I GO.

also...

eh actually that's all.

Just a little update :)

welp, i am pretty sure i have a total of 0 people reading this anymore, but i dont care! i am still going to write my little heart away because I WANT TO! (:

1. guess who FINALLY quit red hanger?! :) MEEEEEEE! i have never been so happy in my entire life!
2. i hate..hate..HATE. stupid winter. i hate being cold. i hate going outside. i hate being inside (because everyone in the world refuses to freakin turn the heater on) and i hate the fact that mrs. pay turns the air conditioner on during tech center!
3. i am addicted to mylifeisaverage.com--seriously addicted.
4. if its going to be so darn cold, why cant they freakin make it snow?! WHAT THE HECK.
5. its almost my birthday (: january 4, dont forget!
6. VIVA MEXICO POR CHRISTMAS. i leave the 26. heckkkkk yeah baby.
7. my brain is exploding out every hole in my head. why you ask? i'm pretty sure its because i am so smart that its just growing, and my head wont fit it.
actually..its because i freakin have a brain tumor i bet.
8. yesterday, i tickled a goat, a cow, a chicken, a camel, and 3 sheep (: they loved it.
9. if i could drink hot chocolate for every meal, i would
10. stop bringing me so much food- i'm getting fat.