i'm a chocoholic

okay so this morning i woke up and heard my host family getting home from their vacation and these were the thoughts that ran through my head (in this exact order)
1. yayyyyyy they're gunna give me foooood!
2. i should probably clean my room
3. OMG NO THEIR HAMSTER IS STILL LAYING DEAD IN ITS CAGE!!!!

i panicked. i couldnt face them..so i hid in my room and wouldnt go out. i was soo nervous. i was shaking and sweating, and then i regretted not throwing the stupid thing away, but i was just tooo chicken!

so after a while of me hiding in my room wishing they would go away so i could dispose of the thing, finally the little girl came in to say hi, and she was standing RIGHT BY the cage. i was like please oh please oh pleaseeeee dont turn your head any more to the left and see your dead hamster laying there. and then the little boy walks in, and they're both like standing there. and i'm sweating, and being really super million times awkward about the situation, just trying to distract them with questions about their trip and what not, and then i ran out of things to say, and they just kept awkwardly standing there looking at me! i didnt know what to do anymore!

so i turned around and just did my own thing, and they stood there for a bit and finally left.
woof, that was closeee. i did NOT want to be the one standing there when they discovered the horrific sight.
so then finally i got ready for the day, and i got the guts to go out there and bring one of the parents into my room and show them and just say sorry and whatever, but when i went out there they were nowhere to be found! and i was already late to the school, so i just went on my merry way and didnt think anything of it.

but then when coming home i remembered what i had to face, and i got the humongous-est butterflies in the world and i just didnt know what i was going to do. so i walked in and i talked to the family for a bit, and then came into my room...

only to find..

a new hamster!

not to be rude or anything, but i wanted to cry. this hamster makes EVEN MORE noise then the last one..but at least it doesnt have a cancerous growth on it's face....that's all i have to say about that.

now i'm not quite sure what to do. do i say anything about it? or just leave it be?

who knows...i guess we'll see if it comes up at dinner....ugh.

okay so the rest of my day went like this:

i got to the school, but all the gates were locked and i was FREEZING..and starving because i had run out of oatmeal the night before, so my food supply was GONE.

so i went there for the free lunch! yaaay. so like five minutes passed and i kept ringing the doorbell (which is extremely inconveniently place because it's about three feet taller than i am, and over a giant pile of snow so you have to reach like nobody's business to get it...and of course me being me..i was trying to reach the bell and fell face first into this giant pile of snow...it was wonderfully awful...but i couldnt stop laughing) so finally the guard came and let me in and all was well. but wanna know what was for lunch? cow liver (which is the lovely color GREEN), buckwheat, and soup...i wanted to cry. but luckily the soup was delish so i scarfed that down and then sneaked another bowl and then another..and then didnt even try the liver. i couldnt. after throwing up yesterday, i couldnt bear the thought of eating that nasty green meat.

so after that me and carly talked foreeeevvvver and then decided to get on the road (we were going to go to this museum..about the treasures of ukraine or something like that) but then we decided that we would rather visit the chocolate shop that they had discovered on tuesday...and i was down FORSURE. so we got on the bus, rode to the metro, then started walking.
we saw a bagel shop, a mexican restaurant, a ton of chinese places, an artisan bread place..and then after a little bit (which means a lotta bit) of walking, we made it! :))))))))
it was heaven at first sight. i wanted to kiss the ground as i walked into the shop.

mm, the smells, the sights, i saw chocolate in every form...i knew this what what heaven was like..i just knew it.

so we sat down, and just admired all the chocolate for a bit until we got our menu..then it happened..i fell in looovveee.

they had chocolate of all sorts. chocolate i didnt even know was possible. chocolate i didnt even know EXISTED.

i knew at that moment i was going to open my own chocolate shop and not let anyone eat any bit of it besides  myself. :) yeah, i really like that idea.

so anyways, we ordered. i got ice cream with melted chocolate drizzled on top, with bananas :)
talk about DIVINE. this food was celestial status. not even kidding.

the chocolate was so creamy and smooth and the ice cream was rich and creamy. and then the chocolate would harden after being on top of the ice cream for so long, so the flavors would be even more delish. the only complaint i have, really, is that the chocolate would melt to the bowl and i worked up a sweat trying to pry it away for my tongue to taste.
but dont be alarmed, i got it, and ate every last ounce. you better believe i will be returning every.single.week. :)

okay, so anyways. blah blah blah. i feel like i let my stories drag on and on for fourteen and a half years, and i get so bored typing for this long!

but going home was..interesting. it took us a minute to find the right platform to be on to get back home, but we figured it out and got home rather quickly! waiting for the bus to come is a painful process though. it's soo cold. i went to itch my nose, and couldnt even feel it. and the bus was taking FOREVER. and by forever, i mean twenty minutes. and standing outside in this kind of weather for twenty minutes is a long time, not to mention i got a little spooked out because it was dark. but dont worry, the bus came, and i got off on the right stop, and made it home in a jiff! :) i'm starting to get used to this whole thing! (not the cold, just the public transportation)

so i forgot to share with you my funny story of the day yesterday...
probably because for me it wasnt very funny...and i was sick so i went to bed at 8. 12 hours of sleep baybayyy! you cant go wrong with that!

anyways, i woke up and ate some yogurt for breakfast...then went on my merry way to school...feeling like i was going to have an okay day. but i get to school, take my shoes, coat, hat, scarf, everything off..and sit down. and i felt AWFUL. i knew at that moment my day was going to be turned upside down. so i sat there, telling myself i was fine and that i wasnt going to puke. but i couldnt stop myself, so i got up and RAN to the bathroom as fast as i could. the second i got in there vomit exploded (luckily in the toilet) and i puked my guts out. and i'm not even going to lie it hurt really bad, and it was really gross..so i'll stop talking about my disgusting puke...but anyways, i wanted you all to know that i threw up and it was awful.

so then i just felt so sick and i didnt want to do ANYTHING but i had to teach my lesson, and i only had about 4 minutes until it was showtime, and all i wanted to do was lay on the floor and die.
but i put a smile on my face and went and taught that class like a CHAMPION. (okay, maybe not champion status, but it went well!)

so blah blah blah, the day went on. i had like this neverending migrane that was like "oh hi. i'm going to feel like a tumor of cancer in your brain and you're gong to like it. haha" so i was DYING. and i didnt want to be alive, but wednesdays are my long days where i teach until 6. so i sat on the ground and cried. a lot.

nothing would help. not food. not water. not medicine. i was doomed to be in pain forever and ever :(
so then i decided i would teach my lesson first so i could get it over with. so i sat down, and started talking..and from that moment on it just went downhill. i couldnt talk in real sentences, nothing i was saying made sense, and the kids were just in their own little world. ( i only had two kids that day..one was really shy..and the other was REALLY in a bad mood)

so anyways, we were drawing pictures of things we liked..and the little boy (who was in a bad mood) drew a picture of him holding hands with a girl, so i was like "oohh vova is that your giiirrlllfriend?!" and he was like no!!! and acted all grossed out. and then later i was like talking to him about school, and asked if he has a girlfriend. he FREAKS. throws his crayon across the room and storms into the bathroom, and i had no idea what to do. i just sat there laughing my head off because it was so awkward.

so then later he decides to come back, but with toilet paper shoved in his ears like "earplugs" and refused to talk the entire time. i wanted to crawl in a hole and die. my entire lesson went down the drain and i was SOOO done. i just packed up all my stuff and was like "well we're done" and passed them off to the next teacher.

i was like really cranky the rest of the night. my headache was AWFUL. and i just couldnt even handle anything, so i went home and went to bed by 8. it was fantastic :) my head doesnt hurt as bad now...so that's good. it's only a medium hurt instead of extreme pain! :)

that's a plus.

hope you all are enjoying your warm weather. send some my way ♥